Dreamer Overthinker

It's 9:28 and I'm slowly realizing This is goodbye We never were meant to be And with every word I sing And every chord I play A little piece of me lets you go Yet one trivial piece I know will stay You've left a mark on me Which I will remind me everyday That day we danced underneath the moonlight I see you slowly disappear The warmth of your touch leaves me Until only I am left My world is at a standstill

Betrayal. You had fallen in love with your best friend. It wasn't so surprising though. Everyone falls in love with your best friend. Everything about him is lovable, being around him feels like the perfect vacation and when he smiles at you, his eyes ground you, making you feel like the most important person in the world. You've known him for 15 years, and maybe you've been falling for him all that time. But suddenly, it had become so painful to hide and pretend you're not hurting. Everyone says you're the complete opposite of each other, as day and night are. He was the sun, you were the moon. He was light and you were darkness. Being a part of his life felt like two magnets repelling each other. Both of yours and his parents though, believe you two would end up together. He would just shrug it off with a good-natured smile while you would roll your eyes and scoff. You didn't want to end up with him though. Because you know you'd be that unwanted black...

I felt older than him but maybe it's because I had to grow up fast. I did't have the same childhood he did or the same environment and people. He gave me back the innocence and warmth and empathy I failed to experience. He is a pure soul. So warm and loving. He's like the sun I was deprived of and now that I've basked in his warmth, the only way I can survive is around him.

Everything came back. I held on to his sleeve, making him pause. He turned to me, a question on his face. "I remember you. I remember everything". His face lit up and in that exact moment, when the setting sun behind lit a halo around him, I realized, finally accepted. He saw it, but not understanding fully and he pulled me to him and himself towards me. Softly enveloping me in a hug and my tears started to slowly fall. I love you. Dear God, I love you so much . I closed my eyes, wishing I'd forget this moment. And never remember ever again.