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August 5, 2017

Betrayal.
You had fallen in love with your best friend.
It wasn't so surprising though. Everyone falls in love with your best friend. Everything about him is lovable, being around him feels like the perfect vacation and when he smiles at you, his eyes ground you, making you feel like the most important person in the world.
You've known him for 15 years, and maybe you've been falling for him all that time. But suddenly, it had become so painful to hide and pretend you're not hurting. Everyone says you're the complete opposite of each other, as day and night are. He was the sun, you were the moon. He was light and you were darkness. Being a part of his life felt like two magnets repelling each other. Both of yours and his parents though, believe you two would end up together. He would just shrug it off with a good-natured smile while you would roll your eyes and scoff.
You didn't want to end up with him though. Because you know you'd be that unwanted black hole in his otherwise beautiful life. You had your demons and it's already difficult enough that he's friends with you. You didn't want to mar his life further. You want him to meet someone who's going to make him happy, not drag his days down. You want someone to make him laugh out loud and smile that smile of his and not make him frown and furrow his eyebrows with worry.
And he would never fall for you. You were his childhood bestfriend and that's it. When you graduate college, you're going your separate ways and maybe that's why it's getting more painful for you these days. He was the only light in your gray and black life. But you know you have to let him go.

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