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Into 2018

As I grow up, more and more events that feel so important and remarkable for me has become.. meh. Like Christmas and New Year. In a way, it's understandable because on one side of my family, they don't really celebrate stuff like those. And it gave me a different perspective on celebrations as a whole.

People usually make New Year's Resolutions and it's an ongoing joke how we never follow through our New Year's Resolutions. I used to make those things too. Then I stopped, realizing I never complete any of it. One reason is because I never take them seriously. I make resolutions without doing anything after the act of making it. No planning, no micro-goals to reach the bigger goals. Another reason, if you've read my previous post Anxiety, Procrastination and Perfectionism, you'd know. I procrastinate when I know I won't be able to do a task perfectly. What underlies that is my schedule. School and school works took up much of my life before. Now that I've graduated and in a way separated myself from the box that is school, it made me realize some things and also actually do something to change my bad habits when it comes to actually doing stuff.


The last post that I did, I said I have some things I would love to do before I leave for the States. I still haven't done any of it. My parents and brother are leaving next month. My sister and I will leave around the end of May and the start of June. Before they leave, I want to able to do at least one, which I think is the most important to me. That is to learn make-up.


One thing that I did start that I didn't plan on doing is a bullet journal. For years, I have been wanting to do one but having no artistic creativity and bad handwriting has prevented me from ever starting it. But now I did. And I have a good feeling about it.


JUST DO. Right now, that's what I feel like this year is going to be for me. Just do. I need to stop overthinking and over-planning what I want to do. If I really want to do. I have to. Head on. Courageously and with grace. Did I say that like a beauty queen? Yes, I did.

Pat
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