Dreamer Overthinker

I'm an INFJ. When I took the MBTI test for this and got my results, I felt so... understood. I felt much more secure in who I am and my preferences. I've always thought nobody could fully understand how I work but here we are. But I also found a sort of peace with myself. I'm a human being. I'm complex. And although this test was pretty accurate in describing me, it's still not all of me, and that's okay. I've always known I'm a perfectionist. I want things done in the right way, at all times. If there's something I must do, I do it with utmost care and precision. If not, I'm not going to do it. That is why I procrastinate. Back then, it was so confusing and frustrating whenever I find myself procrastinating. If I'm a perfectionist, I should do everything asked of me with the right amount of time and never a second late, better if done early. So why do I procrastinate? It was the complete opposite. But when I read about why I procrastina...

I felt older than him but maybe it's because I had to grow up fast. I did't have the same childhood he did or the same environment and people. He gave me back the innocence and warmth and empathy I failed to experience. He is a pure soul. So warm and loving. He's like the sun I was deprived of and now that I've basked in his warmth, the only way I can survive is around him.

Everything came back. I held on to his sleeve, making him pause. He turned to me, a question on his face. "I remember you. I remember everything". His face lit up and in that exact moment, when the setting sun behind lit a halo around him, I realized, finally accepted. He saw it, but not understanding fully and he pulled me to him and himself towards me. Softly enveloping me in a hug and my tears started to slowly fall. I love you. Dear God, I love you so much . I closed my eyes, wishing I'd forget this moment. And never remember ever again.

Hello, hello! So. Intro blog post. My name's Patricia Valle and I live in the Philippines. Born in 1996, is a fresh college graduate from the University of Santo Tomas. As I am currently writing this, I am reviewing and preparing for the Psychometrician Board Exam on October. I am not enrolled in any review centers so it's all on me. Haha! In a few days, I will be going on a trip to Cavite with my extended family to go swimming (even though it has been officially the rainy season for a few days now). And then the week after, I will be going to Cebu for a week with my family. What the exact plans for the vacation is, I don't know. I just know we'll be there for a week. So. What is this blog for? My first love is reading. I don't know when it started but I remember always reading and re-reading the fairytale books given to me and always loving the books gifted to me as a child. But I distinctly remember when I came to realize and when my love for reading and bo...